destruction at its finest.

http://melloke.tumblr.com

sorry guys, i keep changing blog.

YO PEOPLE.

i think im gonna be shuffling between two blogs.
cos i cant decide if i like this better or the other one better.

so remember to check here and there for updates. :D


my new link.


MELMEL ♥


relink, or link me or whatever luh.
and dont forget to follow me. :D

IF THIS IS WHAT I CALL HOME, WHY DOES IT FEEL SO ALONE.


When these pillars get pulled down,
It will be you who wears the crown,
And I’ll owe everything to you

How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much love could make you whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike

I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you

Then she attacks me like a Leo,
When my heart is split like Rio,
But, I assure you my debts are real

I can’t find the words to say,
When I’m confused,
I can’t find the words to say,
You are my mu-

(Ah! Reponds a ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Ahhh verse – moi l’I’vresse,
I belong,
I belong to you alone)

-se,
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I can’t find the words to say,
I belong to you.

i belong to you- muse.




love their new album.
love this song.

cant wait for jamming. :D




and i miss my cupcake. :D







you belong with me.

WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR TIRED EYES, I'LL MEET YOU THERE.


i dontknow what im doing.
can someone please tell me.


i dontknow why im especially obedient to this certain teacher.
you know how mel is always every teacher's favourite student. -.- 
somehow, i feel that i need to listen to her.




why the hell am i online???? 
im supposed to turn into a super mugger.

someone please teach me vectors.
you guys know my number right,
text me if free to teach me. 
thankyou.




byebye bitch.

LETS PLAY A LOVE GAME.

In the heart of the night
When it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noice
A gunshot on the floor

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I'm spinning round
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in the ear
Like I missed you
Want you tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart

Thought I moved more than on
Thought I could fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone, oh oh

Hear the sound of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't ignore this feeling
Said she miss me
And she wants me, wants me tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart

In the heart of the night
When it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noice
A gunshot on the floor

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down, soldier down)
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
(I can't resist)
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
My heart
Straight through my heart
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

straight through my heart- backstreet boys.





im not sorry that im emo-ing again.
im not sorry if im actually venting this onto people.
im not sorry if im throwing vulgarities at people.
im not sorry if


hate me if you like.
cos i think i've lost my mind.

everything im doing is wrong.
and everything im doing....
i have no idea what the fuck im doing it for.







and im probably turning weird.
'cos im actually listening to backstreet boys, taylor swift and lady gaga.
no offense to those people.
but their songs arent my style.
i just dontknow why the hell im listening to them.




SHIT. I NEED TO BUY THE NEW MUSE ALBUM!!!!






oh, and heres a shoutout to a special friend. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STER WU. :D:D:D:D
i'll stay positive dont worry.
hope you have a great day. :D
miss loads and love you always. :D




im afraid i'll miss you.

YOU DONT BELONG TO ME.

you're on the phone with your girlfriend.
shes upset.
Shes going off about something that you said
'Cuz she doesn't, get your humor like I do...
I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
and she'll never know your story like i do

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see, you
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know
Baby....
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh
I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And i know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time
How could you not know
Baby you belong with me
You belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
you belong with me

you belong with me- taylor swift.







and you ask me why the hell am i listening to taylor swift.
so not my genre and type of music.


yesterday's piano exam was SUCK.
probably screwed up the entired aural part.
shucks.

worst thing is,
i've run out of milo at home! ):





uhm, maybe its time i get priorities right.

i ought to be studying more.
instead of making plans for what will happen if i fail.


and i've learnt to be stronger.
i no longer break down to tears that easily like the past month.
and i've learnt to let go.
let go anger, hatred, sadness.
try and absorb as much happiness.
even though half my friends, (or more than half)
still say i look emo.
okayokay, i will try to:
(1) pin my fringe up.
(2) use less eyeliner.
(3) wear less black.
(4) smile and laugh more.
(5) look happier.

try.
heh heh.



maybe its just me.

COULD'VE BEEN LOVERS BUT AT LEAST YOU'RE STILL MY DAY LATE FRIEND.

When your only friends are hotel rooms 
Hands are distant lullabies 
If I could turn around I would tonight  
These roads never seemed so long 
Since your paperheart start beating leaving me suddenly alone 
Will daybreak ever come?  
Who's gonna call on sunday morning? 
Who's gonna drive you home? 
I just want one more chance 
To put my arms in fragile hands  

I thought you said forever 
Over and over 
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head 
Over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
August evenings Bring solemn warnings 
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight  
You never know what temporal days may bring 
So laugh, love, live free and sing 
When life is in dischord 
Praise ye the lord  
Who's gonna call on sunday morning? 
Who's gonna drive you home? 
I just want one more chance 
To put my arms in fragile hands  

I thought you said forever 
Over and over 
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head 
Over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
I thought you said forever over and over 
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
I thought you said forever over and over 
These thoughts run through my head   

paperthin hymn- anberlin.

my world is officially falling apart.
i have to start making plans for my future.
before i eventually commit suicide.

this is serious.



and to everyone who love me (or once loved me),
i love you.
dont forget me when im gone.






Can't help but entertain these thoughts Thoughts of us together       

MAYBE I SHOULD HATE YOU.

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

a little too not over you- david archuleta.





i love this song.
but this video is so emo. ):








and will you tell all your friends, you've got your gun to my head.





THINKING OF YOU....















heart this emo boy. <3





BUT I KNOW....
IM STRONGER THAN THIS.

ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT AND NOTHING CHANGES, YOU'RE STILL THE SAME.

Die Straßen leer 

ich dreh mich um 

Die Nacht hat mich verloren 

Ein kalter Wind 

Die Welt erstarrt 

Die Sonne ist erfroren 

Dein Bild ist sicher 

Ich trag's in mir 

Über 1000 Meere 

Zurück zu dir 

Zurück zu uns 

Wir dürfen unseren 

Glauben nicht verlieren - 

Vertrau mir. . . 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1.000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir endlich frei 

Irgendwo ist der Ort 

den nur wir beide kennen 

ist alles anders als gedacht 

der Puls in den Adern ist viel zu schwach 

doch irgendwie schlagen uns die Herzen durch die Nacht 

Vertrau mir ... 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir endlich frei 

Niemand und nichts nehmen wir mit 

und irgendwann schauen wir auf jetzt zurück 

1000 Meere weit - 1000 Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Meere weit - 1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

vorbei 

lass dich zu mir treiben 

ich lass mich zu dir treiben 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir frei 

lass dich zu mir treiben 

ich lass mich zu dir treiben 

1000 Meere weit...

1000 meere- tokio hotel.


menschen ändern sich nie.
ich war falsch geben ihnen die chance mich zu verletzen.
und ich finde es schwer,
loszulassen oder vergeben.
es ist zu spät zu bereuen.
und ich will nicht darüber nachdenken.





Ich vermisse dich nicht.










Ich schwöre.










http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPKUdoBKVqc



und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk' ich daran

THE WAY WE'RE LIVING MAKES NO SENSE, TAKE ME BACK TO THE AGE OF INNOCENCE.

The roads are wrapped around your waist
They lead me place to place
I take trips from hip to hip
In fact I’ve made a career out of it
I’ve always thought the left was your strongest side
But when it comes to you now I can’t decide
It’s only a matter of time

I need the product of your fears in the form of tears
It’s the only way I can survive
It breaks my heart to see you crying baby
It’s the only way I’ll stay alive
Green eyes, blue skies
Natural disasters when she cries
Green eyes, they’re mine
It’s only a matter of time

Like the climate you never know what weather you get
No denying you’re the habit that I can’t quit
It’s only a matter of mine

Rotating
I’m shaking
I hope you turn around in time
Tide is changing
I’m waiting
But you and I are one of a kind

I’ve been to both hemispheres over my short years
I still can’t pick my favorite place
The contour of your lips
They match the continents
And I still love the way that you taste


time- cute is what we aim for.


i love cute is what we aim for.
its probably the only band that i listen to almost everyday apart from muse. (:
and im taking a break from faber drive for now.

dont get me wrong,
faber drive is an awesome band with lots of awesome songs.
but the lyrics are just.... sad.
and they kinda remind me of a few people whom i dont wanna think about for now.


im really thankful to those people who are constantly telling me lame jokes,
which i can add my bank of jokes.
and im still smiling like i do everyday.

i guess i kinda caused about 3 people to worry about me last night.
sorry for disturbing you guys so early in the morning. \:
but then again, thanks for being so patient with me.

i kinda cant wait for school tomorrow.
yet, i feel like i just wanna stay home.
the "i dont want and cant be bothered to go out" mood is back again.
dressing up to go out doesnt even seem appealing to me anymore.


maybe its all the promos stress.
like, its 29 more days only.
and i feel like commiting suicide now cos im doing this instead of  studying.



oh, by the way.
just to make things clear so people will stop asking me about it.
im single.
apart from my little love affair with marcia, the coolest cedar spouse one can ever have! (:
yes, so stop asking me about everything.
cos i dont wanna talk about it and i dont wanna care.


having laksa for lunch!
im feeling greatttt! :D




actually i dont really know what else to type already.








if i died inside, would anyone realise.









i miss the friendship more.

PRETTY PLEASE JUST TRICK ME.




I'm obsessed and stressed with this mess
I can't think of things
To write down, to type down









i need to go swimming.






and maybe having black cats as my favourite animal is not a good thing.
brings bad luck and attracts too many cats.
what the shit.







we both wet out lips to prepare for the kiss but it never came.
and we both wet our lips to prepare for the kiss that was but a game.





MARCIA, LIZ, DELFILIA, YILING, JONATHAN, JIACHEN, FELIX, DANIEL, DEAN.
thankyou for your love and care!
i love you guysssss! :D

sorry if i missed anyone out!

 
CLEAN UP THE PAST THEN COME BACK TO THE FUTURE. HELLO MCFLY!

Come ride with me 
Through the veins of history 
I'll show you a God that 
Falls asleep on the job  
And how can we win 
When fools can be kings? 
Don't waste your time 
Or time will waste you  
No-one's going to take me alive 
The time has come to make things right 
You and I must fight for our rights 
You and I must fight to survive  
No-one's going to take me alive 
The time has come to make things right 
You and I must fight for our rights 
You and I must fight to survive  
No-one's going to take me alive 
The time has come to make things right 
You and I must fight for our rights 
You and I must fight to survive

knights of cydonia- muse.





my daily dose of muse.
cannot live without knights of cydonia.
cos its really damn imba, the guitar.



ahh, this is so unfair.
my computer is so frigging laggy. ):
and restaurant city is lagging like MAD.

actuallyyyy.... im supposed to do pw.
yeshhhh, PW.
its something all JC students hate.
and yes, i shall complain about it no more.

i'll chiong my eom as soon as i finish this post.


anyway,
chinese teacher was reading out parts of my compo for my chinese class to hear.
and im sorry i couldnt help but laugh continuously at the name i called myself in the story.
hope the compo doesnt spread around school.
i'd be dead man.
and i was just thinking about what pan lao shi commented about my essay.
the whole part about asking questions.
simple questions can mean so much,
and represent so many feelings.

do you? do you not? is this real? are you serious? why? have you changed?
how come? why must? do you know why? how about this? why are you like that?

maybe it just happened that the compo was easy for me to write.
pure coincidence, and a whole load of luck.
cos im the kind who thinks alot,
ask myself alot of questions,
and just sit alone and wonder.

and maybe i think too much thats why i end up emo-ing.
hey people, thats not gonna happen. (:
not anymore. (:












thinking of you keeps me from sleep.

HERE AND NOW.


    Take, take all you need,

And I'll compensate your greed 
With broken hearts  
Sell, I'll sell your memories  
For 15 pounds per year  
But just the good days   Say, it'll make you insane  
And it's bending the truth  
You're to blame  
For all the life that you'll lose and  
You watch this space  
But I'm going all the way  
And be my slave to the grave  
I'm the priest God never paid   
Hope, I hope you've seen the lie  
Cause' no one really cares  
They're just pretending  
Sell, I'll sell your memories  
For 15 pounds per year  
But you can keep the bad days   
Say, it'll make you insane  
And I'm bending the truth  
You're to blame  
For all the life that you'll lose and  
You watch this space  
And I'm going all the way  And be my slave to the grave  
I'm the priest God never paid   
Say, it'll make you insane  
And I'm bending the truth  
You're too blame  
For all the life that you'll lose and  
You watch this space  
And I'm going all the way  
And be my slave to the grave 
I'm the priest God never paid  

 the small print- muse





the past week past so quickly. 
i hardly even remember what happened.

as they say, time passes fast when you're having fun.
i must have had alot of fun.
indeed.

since the last time i posted,
let me just update you on what happened in the whole week.


wednesday 26 august.

school. lessons. tutorials. sleep.
laughed alot with liz at school.
and yeah, had my awesome pingpong trainingggg!
was kinda weird for me when i played against a particular someone.
I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM AND I NEVER WILL.
so you idiots out there who are spreading about how im secretly infatuated with him,
go bang your head against the wall now.
'cos its really annoying everytime i walk past and you guys give me that weird look.
give me a break, alright.

singapore idol at night. wished i could sing. ):


thursday 27 august.

all i remember is a super tiring day until at night around 10plus.
where i could finally bathe and SLEEP.
i remember nothing else that happened that day.


friday 28 august.

soccer for PE.
yeshhhh, thats my favourite.
kinda injured my leg cos someone kicked the ball right into my ankle.
and it freaking hurt.
but its fine now.
cos im walking properly.

and as usual, another tiring day....

i didnt get to buy my kiddy watch! ):


saturday 29 august.

i can vaguely remember waking up early for tuition.
and then having piano.
and then....
i think i slacked the whole day.

went to punggol beach.
had a super UNromantic stroll with my sister.
cos she just kept bugging me "tell me about that guy".
-.-

played with my bows and wanted to camwhore.
but my hunger saved me from that narcissm.
i love food. (:


sunday 30 august.

dont recall doing much.
slack around alot.
tried doing homework, but failed.
okay lah, at least i did Q4a of the graded assignment thing.
or whatever shit its called.

looked at my sister's class photo.
"oh, that girl looks like a guy." i point out.
my sister nods her head.
"oh my, this one looks like a guy too." i point to another person on the top row.
my sister, controlling her laughter, says, "thats a guy." 
and the next thing i knew.
i couldnt stop laughing for 5minutes.
its really not that funny.
but i just couldnt stop.

then went over to grandma's place.
and counting the number of texts sent to a certain D person,
its like freaking alot!
siao lah, must steal his iPhone away someday.


monday 31 august.

sat down happily eating breakfast while everyone did aces.
i love my milo.
and i was like sniggering while watching bro and mom do the workout.
bet they didnt know. and they better not kill me.

and bimbo said some stuff that caused us to burst into laughter,
i still cannot forget the joke. xD

performance was boring.
and the best part was when it was time to go back to cedar! :D
in the bus, me and marcia super impatient.
keep standing up getting ready to get off.
then a few others would be like "havent yet lah".
i think i stood up and sat back down around 4 times?
but it was awesomely fun at cedar.
talked to so many teachers.
and took photos with my friends.
i miss stacey lee and esther wu! :D
and i loved the lunch together.
we should do it more often.

and then i went home to grab tuition stuff and bathe and practise piano.
before going to meet mr. dontworryiloveyoumorethanilovedomo.

reached late. as usual.
cos im never early for dates. x:
and WE DIDNT GET TO WATCH FINAL DESTINATION.
cos im still 8years old.
and my ahma told me to stop lying cos im actually 97. 
what the shit, look at my innocent young face.
no signs of ageing! unlike my ahma.
and i finally got to explore orchard ION.
and kinda met lydia there.
got a shock man.
wanted to go give her a hug but she was with a friend
and going the opposite direction

and i also saw lots of other people.
from AJ, cedar and tuition friends.
but was mostly dao-ed them. or maybe just a small wave.

went late for tuition. cos the trains were all packed.
theres space for me, but no space for domo! )))):
aww.

had a nice end to the day.
slept pretty quickly,
cos i was quite tired.




i have officially learnt the drums part of knights of cydonia.
and i shall learnt the piano part of butterflies and hurricanes.
soon.

and i wonder when will be the next jamming. ):
promos are like so round the corner.
i dont like it.


maybe one day i will buy my cotton on dress, domo pencil box, new heels and ....






 mistake or not.

WHEN I GROW UP.

The saddest thing is you could be anything that you could want 
We could have been everything 
But now we're not 
Now it’s not anything at all 

The hardest part was getting this close to you 
And giving up this dream I built with you 
A fairytale that isn’t coming true 
You’ve got some growing up to do 

CHORUS 
I wish we could have worked it out 
I wish I didn’t have these doubts 
I wish I didn’t have to wonder just what you are doing now 

I wish I didn’t know inside 
That it won’t work out for you and I 
I wish that I could stop this wishing 
And just say my last goodbye 

After all the things you put me through 
Tell me why I’m still in love with you 
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call 

You broke my heart 
I’m taking it back from you 
I’m taking back the life I gave to you 
Life goes on before and after you 
I’ve got some growing up to do…CHORUS 

It’s time I said my last goodbye 
Goodbye 
Goodbye 
It’s time I said my last goodbye…CHORUS 

It’s time I said my last goodbye 
Goodbye 
Goodbye 
It’s time I said my last goodbye

wishes- superchick.




before i got to say goodbye,
i think you already left.


and i dont miss you.



well well,
video's there.
couldnt find their official video. ughh....
but its alright.
just listen to it will do.


school sucks.
i need to do eom soon! ):


 i'll be everything but you.

TAKE MY HAND TONIGHT.


I hold your letter in my frozen hand
The last line was long as long as it burns my look carries on
With every word another feeling dies
I'm left here in the dark
No memories of you
I close my eyes

It's killing me
We die when love is dead
It's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence and should forever feel alone
Cause we are gone and we will never overcome
It's over now

Vultures are waiting for what's left of us
What can we take?
It all has no worth if we lose our trust
They're coming closer, want you and me
I can feel their claws
Let me go now
Try to break free

It's killing me
We die when love is dead
It's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
Cause we are gone and we will never overcome
It's over now
Now, now
It's over now
Now, now,
It's over now
It's over now
It's over now

Vultures are waiting for what's left of us
Taking the last of you and the last of me.

It's killing me
We die when love is dead
It's killing me
We lost a dream we never had
The world in silence should forever feel alone
Cause we are gone and we will never overcome
It's over now
Now, now
It's over now
Now, now
It's over now
It's over now

love is dead- tokio hotel.




love is dead.



but im still living....


(:












now im gone.









you look into a puddle of water.
there it is, your reflection.
you see yourself,
not clear.
not clear at all.
ripples caused by the slight drizzle.

the old man that walks past,
says,
looking into that is no use.
look inside you.
deep inside you.
look into your heart.

you look up,
close your eyes.
listen to nature around you.
you think about happy times,
you give a smile.
you think about sad times,
your smile turns into a frown.
you're thinking,
what if it didnt happen this way....
what if you hadnt made that mistake....
what if you didnt do what you did.... 
what if....
what if....

the old man,
as if being able to read your mind,
tells you gently,
there are no what ifs,
whats happened happened.
you dont hold on to that,
keep happiness,
but throw away the sadness.

and you think again,
what if i cant do that....

CITY OF DELUSION.

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I want to break the spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You
Will be the death of me
Yeah, you
Will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

But our time is running out
But our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped
Sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You
Will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

But our time is running out
But our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

How did it come to this?

Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo

Yeah, you
Will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

But our time is running out
But our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

How did it come to this?

Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ooh ooh ooh yeah yeah no no nooo

time is running out- muse.


been an extremely tiring week for me.
and i cant believe i slept so much today.

sprainked my ankle cos of the stupidest reason.
yeah, trying to act tall.
as usual.

i think i need to buy new high heels!
and i dont wanna sound like a bimbo.
but i think its time i tried to be taller! (:


sheesh, i wanna go jamming again soon.
and i wanna go shopping too. ):
cotton on~



anyway, 
chorus of "i'm gay".

Don't hate us 'cause we're happy
Don't hate us 'cause we're miserable
Don't hate us if we make you smile
Or if we go the extra mile
To make someone feel better on a really shitty day
And if you're hearing what I'm saying then
I want to hear you say, "I'm gay!"
Say, "I'm gay!"





okay, gonna sleep again soon.
lol.

toodles.



i wanna play the game, i want the friction.

and i was playing "love game" on tap tap revenge 2 today.
lady gaga.
what the shit.

WHAT THE SHIT.


WHAT THE SHIT.



IM DAMN PISSED TODAY.
UGHH.






what the shit.

WOULD YOU LIE WITH ME.

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you (hardly know you)
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right (isn't right)
And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning?
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

Isn't this the best part of waking up?
Finding someone else you can't get enough of,
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful?

Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
Outta this that we can't control
Baby I'm dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

Whenever i think about you

why cant i- liz phair. 


Why Cant I? - Liz Phair 


two songs stuck in my head today.
this song and the one below.
lyrics are all here too.
enjoy. (:

We'll do it all, everything, on our own 
We don't need anything or anyone 

If I lay here 
If I just lay here 
Would you lie with me 
And just forget the world 

I don't quite know how to say how I feel 
Those three words are said too much 
They're not enough 

If I lay here 
If I just lay here 
Would you lie with me 
And just forget the world 
Forget what we're told 
Before we get too old 
Show me a garden that's bursting into life 

Let's waste time 
Chasing cars 
Around our heads 
I need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

If I lay here 
If I just lay here 
Would you lie with me 
And just forget the world 
Forget what we're told 
Before we get too old 
Show me a garden that's bursting into life 

All that I am 
All that I ever was 
Is here in your perfect eyes 
They're all I can see 
I don't know where 
Confused about how as well 
I just know that these things 
Will never change for us at all 

If I lay here 
If I just lay here 
Would you lie with me 
And just forget the world

chasing cars- snow patrol.



Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol 

and just forget the world.

hooked onto back in black too!
my ringtone now. 
ughh. x:

HELLO! HERES A PW SURVEY.
BE NICE AND HELP ME.
PLEASE AND THANK YOU. (:


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HOW CAN I DECIDE WHATS RIGHT.


It's bugging me
Grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah, I'm endlessly
Caving in
And turning inside out

Cuz I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm breaking out
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It's holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive
To be endlessly cold within
And dreaming I'm alive

Cuz I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
I'm not breaking down
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now
I want you now
I feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

hysteria- muse.






im gonna be a better person from now on.



anyway, havent updated for the past few days.

friday.
national day celebrations at school was a disaster.
what the shit, no disco! ):
the sing-along was pretty boring.
we should all have just stood up and jumped around.
and then after that went for a jam and dinner with my two bandmates.
aka my mom and my bro. two crazy but cool people. (:
haha, and dinner was damn fun lah.
suan bryan until damn funny.
and gran's prank. epic faillll.
lol.

saturday.
had a fun day.
no piano!
played wii at night.
love mario kart. (:
and as usual, fell asleep at night forgetting to reply 2 people's texts.
x: oops so sorry.

sunday. (today!)
stayed home all day.
played wii in the morning.
and i finally finished my homework.

yay.

and i dont know what else to write already.
so yupyup.


and bryan's got me in love with ACDC.
and i think i finished learning the drum part for the crazy guitar solo.
yay! celebrateeee. (:

lets hope everyday will be a happy day from now on.



when you're clouding up my mind.


There is something I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true.