destruction at its finest.

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sorry guys, i keep changing blog.

YO PEOPLE.

i think im gonna be shuffling between two blogs.
cos i cant decide if i like this better or the other one better.

so remember to check here and there for updates. :D


my new link.


MELMEL ♥


relink, or link me or whatever luh.
and dont forget to follow me. :D

IF THIS IS WHAT I CALL HOME, WHY DOES IT FEEL SO ALONE.


When these pillars get pulled down,
It will be you who wears the crown,
And I’ll owe everything to you

How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much love could make you whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike

I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you

Then she attacks me like a Leo,
When my heart is split like Rio,
But, I assure you my debts are real

I can’t find the words to say,
When I’m confused,
I can’t find the words to say,
You are my mu-

(Ah! Reponds a ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Reponds a ma tendresse,
Ahhh verse – moi l’I’vresse,
I belong,
I belong to you alone)

-se,
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I can’t find the words to say,
I belong to you.

i belong to you- muse.




love their new album.
love this song.

cant wait for jamming. :D




and i miss my cupcake. :D







you belong with me.

WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR TIRED EYES, I'LL MEET YOU THERE.


i dontknow what im doing.
can someone please tell me.


i dontknow why im especially obedient to this certain teacher.
you know how mel is always every teacher's favourite student. -.- 
somehow, i feel that i need to listen to her.




why the hell am i online???? 
im supposed to turn into a super mugger.

someone please teach me vectors.
you guys know my number right,
text me if free to teach me. 
thankyou.




byebye bitch.

LETS PLAY A LOVE GAME.

In the heart of the night
When it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noice
A gunshot on the floor

I looked down
And my shirt's turning red
I'm spinning round
Felt her lips on my neck
And her voice in the ear
Like I missed you
Want you tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart

Thought I moved more than on
Thought I could fool her charm
I really wanna go
But I can't leave her alone, oh oh

Hear the sound of a love so loud
I just can't, I just can't ignore this feeling
Said she miss me
And she wants me, wants me tonight

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart

In the heart of the night
When it's dark in the lights
I heard the loudest noice
A gunshot on the floor

Straight through my heart
A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding, oh
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down, soldier down)
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it, oh
No I can't resist
(I can't resist)
And I can't be here
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
Straight through my heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
My heart
Straight through my heart
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
(Soldier down)
My heart
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

straight through my heart- backstreet boys.





im not sorry that im emo-ing again.
im not sorry if im actually venting this onto people.
im not sorry if im throwing vulgarities at people.
im not sorry if


hate me if you like.
cos i think i've lost my mind.

everything im doing is wrong.
and everything im doing....
i have no idea what the fuck im doing it for.







and im probably turning weird.
'cos im actually listening to backstreet boys, taylor swift and lady gaga.
no offense to those people.
but their songs arent my style.
i just dontknow why the hell im listening to them.




SHIT. I NEED TO BUY THE NEW MUSE ALBUM!!!!






oh, and heres a shoutout to a special friend. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STER WU. :D:D:D:D
i'll stay positive dont worry.
hope you have a great day. :D
miss loads and love you always. :D




im afraid i'll miss you.

YOU DONT BELONG TO ME.

you're on the phone with your girlfriend.
shes upset.
Shes going off about something that you said
'Cuz she doesn't, get your humor like I do...
I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
and she'll never know your story like i do

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along so why can't you see, you
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
all this time how could you not know
Baby....
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh
I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And i know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time
How could you not know
Baby you belong with me
You belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
you belong with me

you belong with me- taylor swift.







and you ask me why the hell am i listening to taylor swift.
so not my genre and type of music.


yesterday's piano exam was SUCK.
probably screwed up the entired aural part.
shucks.

worst thing is,
i've run out of milo at home! ):





uhm, maybe its time i get priorities right.

i ought to be studying more.
instead of making plans for what will happen if i fail.


and i've learnt to be stronger.
i no longer break down to tears that easily like the past month.
and i've learnt to let go.
let go anger, hatred, sadness.
try and absorb as much happiness.
even though half my friends, (or more than half)
still say i look emo.
okayokay, i will try to:
(1) pin my fringe up.
(2) use less eyeliner.
(3) wear less black.
(4) smile and laugh more.
(5) look happier.

try.
heh heh.



maybe its just me.

COULD'VE BEEN LOVERS BUT AT LEAST YOU'RE STILL MY DAY LATE FRIEND.

When your only friends are hotel rooms 
Hands are distant lullabies 
If I could turn around I would tonight  
These roads never seemed so long 
Since your paperheart start beating leaving me suddenly alone 
Will daybreak ever come?  
Who's gonna call on sunday morning? 
Who's gonna drive you home? 
I just want one more chance 
To put my arms in fragile hands  

I thought you said forever 
Over and over 
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head 
Over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
August evenings Bring solemn warnings 
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight  
You never know what temporal days may bring 
So laugh, love, live free and sing 
When life is in dischord 
Praise ye the lord  
Who's gonna call on sunday morning? 
Who's gonna drive you home? 
I just want one more chance 
To put my arms in fragile hands  

I thought you said forever 
Over and over 
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head 
Over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
I thought you said forever over and over 
The sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion  
These thoughts run through my head over and over 
Complaints of violins become my only friends  
I thought you said forever over and over 
These thoughts run through my head   

paperthin hymn- anberlin.

my world is officially falling apart.
i have to start making plans for my future.
before i eventually commit suicide.

this is serious.



and to everyone who love me (or once loved me),
i love you.
dont forget me when im gone.






Can't help but entertain these thoughts Thoughts of us together       

MAYBE I SHOULD HATE YOU.

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

a little too not over you- david archuleta.





i love this song.
but this video is so emo. ):








and will you tell all your friends, you've got your gun to my head.





THINKING OF YOU....















heart this emo boy. <3





BUT I KNOW....
IM STRONGER THAN THIS.

ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT AND NOTHING CHANGES, YOU'RE STILL THE SAME.

Die Straßen leer 

ich dreh mich um 

Die Nacht hat mich verloren 

Ein kalter Wind 

Die Welt erstarrt 

Die Sonne ist erfroren 

Dein Bild ist sicher 

Ich trag's in mir 

Über 1000 Meere 

Zurück zu dir 

Zurück zu uns 

Wir dürfen unseren 

Glauben nicht verlieren - 

Vertrau mir. . . 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1.000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir endlich frei 

Irgendwo ist der Ort 

den nur wir beide kennen 

ist alles anders als gedacht 

der Puls in den Adern ist viel zu schwach 

doch irgendwie schlagen uns die Herzen durch die Nacht 

Vertrau mir ... 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir endlich frei 

Niemand und nichts nehmen wir mit 

und irgendwann schauen wir auf jetzt zurück 

1000 Meere weit - 1000 Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Meere weit - 1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

vorbei 

lass dich zu mir treiben 

ich lass mich zu dir treiben 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Durch 1000 dunkle Jahre ohne Zeit 

1000 Sterne ziehen vorbei 

Wir müssen nur noch 1000 Meere weit 

Noch 1000-mal durch die Unendlichkeit 

Dann sind wir frei 

lass dich zu mir treiben 

ich lass mich zu dir treiben 

1000 Meere weit...

1000 meere- tokio hotel.


menschen ändern sich nie.
ich war falsch geben ihnen die chance mich zu verletzen.
und ich finde es schwer,
loszulassen oder vergeben.
es ist zu spät zu bereuen.
und ich will nicht darüber nachdenken.





Ich vermisse dich nicht.










Ich schwöre.










http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPKUdoBKVqc



und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk' ich daran

THE WAY WE'RE LIVING MAKES NO SENSE, TAKE ME BACK TO THE AGE OF INNOCENCE.

The roads are wrapped around your waist
They lead me place to place
I take trips from hip to hip
In fact I’ve made a career out of it
I’ve always thought the left was your strongest side
But when it comes to you now I can’t decide
It’s only a matter of time

I need the product of your fears in the form of tears
It’s the only way I can survive
It breaks my heart to see you crying baby
It’s the only way I’ll stay alive
Green eyes, blue skies
Natural disasters when she cries
Green eyes, they’re mine
It’s only a matter of time

Like the climate you never know what weather you get
No denying you’re the habit that I can’t quit
It’s only a matter of mine

Rotating
I’m shaking
I hope you turn around in time
Tide is changing
I’m waiting
But you and I are one of a kind

I’ve been to both hemispheres over my short years
I still can’t pick my favorite place
The contour of your lips
They match the continents
And I still love the way that you taste


time- cute is what we aim for.


i love cute is what we aim for.
its probably the only band that i listen to almost everyday apart from muse. (:
and im taking a break from faber drive for now.

dont get me wrong,
faber drive is an awesome band with lots of awesome songs.
but the lyrics are just.... sad.
and they kinda remind me of a few people whom i dont wanna think about for now.


im really thankful to those people who are constantly telling me lame jokes,
which i can add my bank of jokes.
and im still smiling like i do everyday.

i guess i kinda caused about 3 people to worry about me last night.
sorry for disturbing you guys so early in the morning. \:
but then again, thanks for being so patient with me.

i kinda cant wait for school tomorrow.
yet, i feel like i just wanna stay home.
the "i dont want and cant be bothered to go out" mood is back again.
dressing up to go out doesnt even seem appealing to me anymore.


maybe its all the promos stress.
like, its 29 more days only.
and i feel like commiting suicide now cos im doing this instead of  studying.



oh, by the way.
just to make things clear so people will stop asking me about it.
im single.
apart from my little love affair with marcia, the coolest cedar spouse one can ever have! (:
yes, so stop asking me about everything.
cos i dont wanna talk about it and i dont wanna care.


having laksa for lunch!
im feeling greatttt! :D




actually i dont really know what else to type already.








if i died inside, would anyone realise.









i miss the friendship more.